a mon avie

oh, with what wonder will you watch my demise?

'Cause really, that's all you're good for.

And you, you're stuck on the precipice of sanity, with nowhere to go but down.

I told you, and I told you, and I made it quite clear.

Yet, it seems I may not have been clear enough.

I do not believe, and nothing (NOTHING) you say will change that.

Especially not you. Ha.

I don't want you to hold me,

I don't want you to pray,

this is bigger than us.

So you're stuck on me, but dating her, and I'm irrevocably stuck on him. He is hung up on her, but missing the other her, and I'm still looking at my best friend, wanting more.

"Hi, Welcome to Unrequited airlines; please fasten your seatbelt, keep all emotions and opnions inside your head at all times, and please enjoy the ride as much as you can before you kill yourself out of frustration"

yeah, thanks for the heads up, bitch.

and so i'm stuck here, holding on for dear life, and i just want to let go and give up and give in, but for some reason i'm just a sick masochist who wants to encapsulate herself in heartbreak.

//Will you love me?

If not forever than just for today,

I promise to try and get better.

'Cause I know now, Love is all the matters//

funny., when i first head that song, i could have sworn she said love is not the answer...

i don't want your love. i just want you to notice, and maybe care. just a little. because for some reason, you mean the world to me.

And I'm not ashamed of that.

Go on, tell me your name. And I'll say I care about you, and I'll mean it. Because right now, if you're still reading this post, you understand. And I care about you, because You get it.

and that's all i've ever wanted.

then why do i always fuck it up?