i'm holding on, but when will you let go?

I won't pray to a god that doesn't exist. But I will pray to you, because hey- if you're reading this, you're alive. You exist. And you can do just as much about my wishes as anyone else. Which is not at all. So really, I'm just spewing words.

I don't think I love you.

I don't think I'll ever love anybody.

I don't think I'm capable of love.

But if I was, there's only two people I'd want to love. And you're one of them. One of the ones that I so dearly hope for.

AND YOU NEED TO STOP BEING SO VAGUE.

sorry. that was bothering me. because really, you're never clear about much of anything.

Just this once, answer me.

Tell me what and tell me why.

Will you let me hope?