Never before have I been more worried. Or scared. Or truly conflicted.
I wake up, check the calendar. You're still you, I'm still me.
And one plus one makes three, maybe.
Where did this go wrong?
Please, please don't let me down again.
I'm begging you, if this takes a turn for the worse, you're all I have.
No one else will understand.

But you're on the train, one-way ticket to get away
There's no stopping you now
I can't pretend to miss you
Staying strong is harder in the face of fear
Being happy is impossible when you're gone


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You're set on leaving, I know I can't stop you.
There was a time when I thought even speaking to you would set me off
There was a time when seeing you was a thing of my dreams
Now you were in my life again
You still wanted me- I know.
This struggle inside your heart, it's tearing both of us to pieces.
It kills me to say it,
but I really hope you'll leave for good.
You'll become a memory to me, a past to pack away into the recesses of my mind
you won't mean the same thing
you'll be more, yet the fact that you're gone will be final
I'll have to move on
We both knew it was coming- love like this is the stuff of fairy tales
Not real life.