After: day 28

you've got me all tied up in knots.
you tell me you regret it, you really really do.
and what am i supposed to say to that?

-waking up on the couch again, bedrooms haunt me now
reflections in a dormant television,
hair soft and messy, eyes red from everything to do with you
in those glimmering last seconds of dreamstate,
i can almost see you shuffle down the hall towards me,
a yawn and a smile, words can never say hello so well
my head's still spinning, sick can't even describe
you'd tell me i'm beautiful anyway
for once i'd believe you
blink, and the dreams are gone.
you're gone.
i'm gone, wasting away without you-

i keep telling myself that i'd do anything to get you back- because i know that's truth
i keep telling myself i'm getting over you- because i'm still trying to convince myself
i keep waiting for the call that will save me from myself- knowing it will never come
i keep wishing you'll be mine again- wishing because i refuse to give up hope

I'm sitting in the little room 
watching you pretend that you don't love me like you used to
I can see the lies inside your eyes, I cry 
cause I can't forget all the things that we've been through

When the walls come crumbling down
Dust replaces the magic that we found

What if I told you that once I leave I let go
Would you believe that I am stronger than you know

You wished it away now I can't stay

Remember in the little room 
the time we thought we had something special no one else had
Well I don't understand how something so good, 
something so good can turn out so bad

I know it hurts you even though you can't show it
I had to knock you down or I would have never known it

You wished it away now I can't stay

I miss you
I hate the way you've made me hate you
You couldn't say "stay" 
Why can't I move on?


if i were to ask just once more, to take it back, would you listen?
if i asked just once, to try
just once, let a second chance take you by surprise
let me take you back
let me live- because without you i don't know what breathing means