guess what?

dear best friend,

the memories will never fade, i know.

but i have to get over you somehow.

i hate that feeling, when you get rejected by the one person you know could fit right into your heart. but i will not let it show, how highly i think of you. i won't let know how much you make me hurt. every time i'm around you, it hurts. its painful to know that you will never feel the same. and a small part of me tries to yell "maybe he's the same as you! maybe he's trying to hide it, for your sake. and maybe that little voice of his is wrong." but i can't let myself get my hopes up again. i just can't handle it. sitting through the trobbing while we hang out is like a papercut compared to the bullethole a real rejection would be. you're my best friend, i need you in any form i can get.

and now that he's single again, i want to feel wanted. he still loves me, i know. and i always want to ask, is it better to love and be loved, or to be in love with your soulmate? tough question for me. but it feels so good, when he's around me. he wants me the way i am. he loves the way i smile and he's addicted to me. who's to say no to that?

not me.

but still, without you i'll be miserable at best.

sincerely,

margo

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But the nights can't hide the days
That the tears roll down her face
And the light hits those eyes
As she's dying to say
Just take me away

Well l through fog that sits like blankets
And that's drowning out the glow
You can hear voices loud
And sing out a song nobody knows
But to her it sounds like home

But the nights can't hide the days
That the tears roll down her face

And the light hits those eyes
As she's dying to say
Just take me away from all that I am