im supposed to be asleep

hey, my first post and im supposed to be asleep. late at night i often lie awake, and seldom do i sleep dreamlessly. i find myself wondering late into the darkness, my eyes open but seeing nothing. this is when i type. i type my feelings in poems, and i type my thouhgts in words; but most often i type my story. you must understand that i am unhappy with my life. i understand that this could never be fixed entirely, so i am writing a story that i wish to be mine. La vita per i lunghi hanno thats italian. i LOVE italian. it means the life i long to have, and i agree that many people would like to try out a few steps in another's shoes, but i'd like to burn my own. its hard, but that's how i roll. music helps me to relax, so i almost always have my Zune playing. soon i will begin posting more of my story. [also a note; i am really bad with typing, i have no idea why, but if someis talking, i can type fast, but almost every word is in complete reverse!] now i must continue to stare at the purple ceiling of my room and wish i were really somewhere else...